clyde came home today. well, correction. his box came home today. it seems, as i suspected, that clyde's been here all along. right here. but i finally went and picked up his box and ashes today and it is truly lovely. all engraved on the top with a scene of a "peaceful place" and a path leading through the woods towards the mountains. it kind of looks like bonny doon. i'm sure clyde likes it.
my phone rang this morning with a call from clyde. no, people, i do not need to be committed. well, at least not for that reason. amito, clyde's trusty pet psychic was calling. she had a few messages from clyde. i haven't spoken to her since clyde died. i've wanted to call, but just haven't. anyway, she called me. because she had messages that clyde wanted me to know.
like that he's very much okay. and that he finds it quite funny that i say goodbye to him whenever i leave the house, because he's always coming with me. he doesn't stay behind. and he's quite enjoying these very long walks we're going on these days. he loves the beach, especially and he's not surprised at all that i keep turning around and looking for him behind me because that's right where he is. and he was thumping his tail the other morning on the floor just to make sure that dave and i really knew that he was still around. he was very glad that we heard it. and it's not necessary to leave the light on for him anymore when i leave the house, because, like he said, he's always coming with me now. he doesn't have to stay behind and he likes that very much. and the next time i make cookies, he'll try to supervise a little more carefully.
yes, he really said all these things! i was a little shocked, but then also couldn't help myself from grinning from ear to ear. because wouldn't you just expect clyde to say these very things?
and he laughed about picking up the ashes. didn't i know they were just that, ashes? and if i wanted to leave them at the animal hospital forever, well, that was okay with him. he didn't care what i did with them at all. really. he told me to remember that it wasn't him in that box. just a memory of an old body that was no longer useful on this planet. and he also said that he knew that dave and i were having "words" about getting a new dog. he wanted me to know that i shouldn't even think about a new dog, to just leave that to him. he is already working on it. and when the time is right, he'll bring the right dog into my life. but just because that dog comes does not mean he's leaving. he says he's always going to be there. he's my clydefairy now.
and he also wanted me to know that harry is quite a nice fairy, too.
