Dear Internet,
This morning I poured my broken heart and soul out to you and you responded very kindly. I appreciate the fact that I can be as emotional and raw as I need to be here with all of you and that I will receive such warm love and kindness in return.
Not everywhere in the world is so kind.
I want to remind you, though, that when I write those posts that they are from my point of view. That DearSweetDave most certainly has his own interpretation and point of view about the state of our marriage and because he's a different person than I am, he chooses not to share it all with the Internet. That's fine. I respect that. Just as he respects that anything he says may eventually appear here and could, very well, be misinterpreted because it is delivered through my own emotional filter and not directly from him.
I love that all of you are so very supportive of me. I know, without question, that it is the very words that all of you are so kind to share with me both in the comments and in email that help me to keep my feet on this earth and to stop my head from spinning and to figure things out.
So again, thank you. I know that many of you who have read Nakedjen for a very long time have formed your own opinions about me and about DearSweetDave and about our marriage. Your perspectives and your willingness to share them with me are treasures. Truly. Because while you're still only receiving one side of the story, the story you are receiving is the way I certainly see it. So the advice given is certainly welcomed and often cherished.
Again, thank you.
I can't resist sharing this photo with all of you. We are in a space of confusion, but we are both very determined to work through to a place a clarity. What that place of clarity looks like for both of us is still rather uncertain. But that doesn't mean we're not going there. I love him. He loves me. We both want each other to be happy. The equation should be simple. But there's some x factor in there that still remains completely unknown. I'm hopeful we will find the solution. But only time will tell.
My two most handsome men. I do love him. Absolutely.
