I have been following the discussion that has erupted on my behalf in the comments of previous posts. I first want to say that I believe each of us has a very passionate belief on this matter and what I love most is that all of you are willing to share your beliefs with me. I can not learn from those of you who choose to remain silent. I learn most from those of you who choose to speak your own truths, to share your own passions, to speak out even if your own voices crack.
All your words, all my words, all our collective words are helping. I am a woman who is naked. I am a woman who exposes all her emotions. I am a woman, who right this minute, is quite raw.
I do understand, on an intellectual level, how not publicizing this very intimate part of my life, these very intimate details of a marriage unraveling, the pain and the hurt and gasping for air that I am experiencing could be quite beneficial for many. I do understand and I actually support that if that is your particular path.
I also understand, truthfully, that there are certain tactics that may work in certain situations with certain marriages and relationships to help salvage the union.
I do not play games. I give you 110% honesty, my truth, and I rarely wrap it up in a lovely box with pretty paper and a tidy little bow. No, more likely it comes at you like a full-force gust of torrential rain. It soaks you to the bone so that even if you were wearing your clothes, you may now feel naked, as well.
I make no apologies for who I am. This is me. This is Nakedjen. And if the content that I am writing and sharing is too difficult for you to bear witness to right now, well, I invite you to please take a break.
I love all of you. Your passion and your love and the ways in which you have reached out to me in these last few days have saved me, truly saved me, in more ways than you'll possibly be able to guess.
There are no right or wrong ways in which to dissolve a marriage with the absolute love of your life. There is no text book to follow. This is my path, my journey, that I must take. I am doing my best to take it with integrity and love. And to stay standing. And to remember to breathe.
It's Friday. I think being naked today, especially, could be quite good for all of us. Spend some time and celebrate the you that you are. And remember to be grateful for all of you. Each beautiful part. I love you.
