We held the rest of our Divorce Sale over the weekend. And now it's done. We won't ever be having another one. Check that off the list. A lot of my book collection went off to new homes and I'm glad that they're going to folks who may at least appreciate them before passing them on to someone else. It was quite busy at points on both days and I know that many things just walked out of here without being paid for, which upset me at first, but then I just let it go. I mean, honestly, I just wanted to stuff to please go!
I think what was upsetting me was that folks felt like they really could just walk off with things! When did this happen in our society? I know it has always happened. But it seems to happen so much more frequently now. People just pick things up, put them in their pocket, and walk off. Like they're entitled to take things. I know I'm just as guilty, actually. I have walked into concerts and movies as an "invisible" person on numerous occasions (however I actually usually DO have a ticket) and I have downloaded television shows from the internet. But if I was at your garage sale I saw a set of bowls that looked like something I might want? I'd pay you for them. I promise.
You might remember that Dave and I created a vision board together last year on the Solstice. A huge board. It was at least 4 feet by 6 feet if not larger. We co-created it together with our "vision" for our marriage. What we both wanted together and individually. We took a long time to put it together and a lot of thought and energy went into the board. We hung it in our bedroom on the wall facing our bed so that we could see it each night as we were going to bed. I can't speak for Dave, but I do know that I spent a lot of time looking at the board each night. And visualizing the things on it that were important to me. Many of the "things" on the board have come into our lives over this year.
But when Dave said he was done in October, my first thought was that we had to do something significant with the Vision Board. That was a lot of co-created energy that just could not be left to its own devices. I didn't want to just "throw it away". And I also didn't really want it to exist anymore. Because "we" no longer existed.
So on Saturday evening, after our Divorce Sale, under the full moon, we burned the Vision Board in a ceremony on the beach. It went up in flames rather quickly and easily. And as I watched it burn into ashes and watched the ashes float over the beach and out to sea, I honestly felt a sense of relief. And completeness.
Two young boys walked up just as the Vision Board was truly erupting into giant flames and one of them said, "Burning things is a great way to get rid of stuff you no longer need!" No longer need, indeed. His timing could not have been more perfect.
I didn't even feel sad. I just felt like it was all good. I let go of our marriage. I sent it back to the Universe. I let go of Dave. I sent him back, too. And I realized I am now truly free to receive whatever gifts and opportunities and especially love that may come my way. This is all happening very fast, I know. I also am aware that I may falter and may take two steps back at any time. But today, in this moment, I am open, I am willing and I am ready to receive.
All of it.
