phew. that's done. for today at least. in the midst of the divorce sale my landlord showed up and he's been doing "improvements" all day. gah. like i don't have enough to deal with? why today does he need to be doing improvements to the house? he says it is so it is ready to rent on december 1. but i haven't even moved out yet?? and honestly, it was just stressful having him here all day while i had every one of my belongings strewn all over the yard, the garage, and even the house...as we had people come in the house if they were interested in some of the larger pieces of furniture.
i have spent the WHOLE DAY with dave. it was exhausting. i have no idea how much money we made. we are not doing this tomorrow but will do this again next weekend as it looks, honestly, like we didn't sell a thing. but we sold A LOT OF STUFF.
goodness.
i had one freak out moment when i opened a box and it was FULL of wedding momentos. our programs, our invites, our save the dates, all of it. it all feels like a big fat lie. i don't know when it won't. i honestly on most days feel like i wasted the last eight years. and i know intellectually that probably isn't true. it's just how i feel right now. like i gave my heart and soul to this marriage, but for what? pain and agony???
anyway, i have to go. the dogs have been inside all day. they need a walk and food and love.
just like their mama. i need a walk and love, too.
