I've been tagged by Gwendomama. With a promise of brownies. Brownies that I know are more than worth the time it will take me to share five little things about myself that many of you may or may not already know. Gwendomama knows the way to this Naked girl's heart. She also knows that I will actually drive to Santa Cruz to collect the brownies because they.are.that.good.
So here are five random things about me.
1. I recently discovered that Dave had placed a profile on Match.com looking for someone new. I got very angry at this discovery. But maybe not for the reasons you may think. I was not angry that Dave was feeling lonely and looking for someone to keep him warm at night. That really wasn't it at all, and I mean that in all honesty.
What bothered me, truthfully, was that Dave did not have the courtesy or respect to tell me about it. He decided that it was "better" for me to discover it on my own. He actually said when I confronted him about it (because we all know that's exactly what I did and not in a very loving manner, at first, I will admit) that he was afraid I might "commit suicide" if he told me about it. SUICIDE! Goodness gracious!
We talked a lot about it and I shared with him that I believed that he was allowing fear to rule his heart when it came to our relationship and that his fears were manifesting exactly what he feared the most. I also shared with him that if he really did love me as he professed to do that sharing things from a place of real love would only result in more love between the two of us. That our relationship isn't actually over. That it is still ending. That the real end and blossoming into what will be is still to come.
I believe that we both came to a new and better understanding of each other that day.
2. I have decided not to pursue getting my Organic Medicinal Teas onto the shelves of Whole Foods myself. Trust me, this disappoints me in a lot of ways. But the rules for taking an organic tea to market have changed. And in order for me to do it, I need a huge capital investment that I just do not have. I really need an established beverage company to decide that they would like to sell and distribute Organic Medicinal teas that actually work. And who knows? Perhaps by putting that right here on this little blog someone who knows someone who knows someone will read it and say, "But wait, there's this company that wants to do exactly that..." and then, well, Dreamsweet will actually make it to the shelves of health food stores worldwide. A girl can still hope. Dreams can come true.
3. I have been thinking about adoption. I know that may completely shock many of you. But I actually have really been contemplating it. I have a huge heart. And I actually did spend a large part of last Monday perusing adoption sites for kids that are older. I don't want a baby. I want kids. I'm even open to taking two at once. Yes, just like I adopted Buddha and Stella together. I'm open to adopting siblings. I don't know where this is coming from, to be honest.
I have always loved kids. I am NannyNakedJen. But I have never, ever, until just recently, considered myself "mother" material. And now? Well, I think I'm probably too old to actually have children of my own. But, as I said, I have a huge heart. HUGE! And why not share it with some very deserving kids who could certainly benefit from the love I have to share? As my friend Wendee pointed out, at least I'd be able to show them where Finland is on a map. (I said that to make her laugh!).
4. I'm growing more and more concerned about our food supply. I know that we're supposed to trust that the organic label on our food is enough to ensure that it is truly organic. But with all the genetic cross pollination and superfoods that are being created, not to mention the amount of convenience foods that we're all consuming practically non-stop, I'm concerned that we're creating a society that will soon have forgotten how to actually eat WHOLE FOODS. That our own bodies will not be able to actually absorb and process the very nutrients that we need. But that because of our farming practices that our very food will be devoid of those nutrients that we so desperately need.
I have nightmares about this, if you'd like to know the truth. It's an odd obsession, I know. I'm frightened about the way we all eat. How easily we reject common sense in order to keep downing our fast food and soda pop. We're going to kill ourselves with convenience.
5. My sister NeverNakedBeth's Mormon relatives all think that I am a porn star because my name is Nakedjen. They have never actually read this blog. They can not comprehend why I have moved to Salt Lake City or why I am actually liking it and have not been run out of town. They also are very curious how I am making a living.
I don't think I'll tell them. I think I'll just allow them to continue to believe I'm a porn star. I mean for some of the Internet, especially those in Poland, I am!
Okay, I'm supposed to tag Five People to do this. But I'm not. I'm breaking the rules. Instead, I'm tagging all of YOU. If you're reading and you have a blog, go tell us five random things about yourself. It's rather cathartic, actually. And you may be able to get some Gwendomama brownies out of it. You never know?!
