Or not. My soul is going through all kinds of searching. And aching. I can only seem to share lists these days. So here's another.
1. Snow blowing sideways while the sun is shining doesn't make it any less snow or any less searing on my soul that is seeking spring.
2. New found friends who invited me for an organic vegan pot luck are a true blessing. They're good for my soul. They also provided much needed laughter, much needed company and a much needed break from eating dinner alone.
3. Spring is blooming in Santa Cruz. My soul knows this even if my body is still freshly frozen here in Salt Lake City. And my soul is aching with the wanting of the smell of flowers in my nose and the sight of that special blue hue the ocean has on these days.
4. Being able to attend my niece and nephew's orchestra concerts at their schools? Well, that IS good for my soul. Really. It is. I love being an almost daily part of their lives. Even if they do roll their eyes at me most of the time.
5. I am too fragile to be receiving attention from men who are only looking to lie on top of me and then disappear like goth figures back into the shadows of the night. Yes, I know that I said that sometimes that is all that a girl wants or needs. I realize it is too soon for me to want or need just that. My soul is far too delicate. And perhaps, yes, it is far too toxic. Not sure, really. But I'm feeling confounded by the men who keep appearing in my life right now. The universe must have a very interesting lesson for me to learn.
