i am not at work today because i'm still that sick. i called last night
and said, "swine flu". that was enough. they called me and said, "do
not come to the office until you are well, thank you." har!
i want to be there instead of here, quite frankly. i'm very much done with this illness. the outlaw has been here being quite kind and sweet, but i've been less than kind and sweet as i just become even more bitchy and cranky than usual when i'm not feeling well.
every time i start to feel better, i just end up feeling much worse. it's like two steps forward seven steps backwards. or something like that.
i had a real, "i live here now" moment this morning. i walked into the coffee garden and they all said, "nakedjen, are you okay?" and i said, "well, no not really..." and they all said, "we've been following you on twitter. you're really sick!"
it made me laugh. in a good way. i mean, come on?! the coffee garden peeps are following me on twitter? that, my friends, is rather comical. and makes me feel loved all at the same time. in january, i will have lived here for two years. two years. which isn't really that long in the grand scheme of things considering i lived in santa cruz for 20 years and salt lake is a much larger city.
and yet?
i've got a community here. i really do. i have genuine friends here. in mormonville. who truly do love me. and will bring me hot and sour soup in the middle of the night. and cook me rad indian food just because. and invite me to strange burning man activities in the middle of the desert. and take me to the top of a mountain to see falling stars.
it's a beautiful thing, this life here. i can't really complain. so if i do? slap me. and remind me that i am loved.
i want to be there instead of here, quite frankly. i'm very much done with this illness. the outlaw has been here being quite kind and sweet, but i've been less than kind and sweet as i just become even more bitchy and cranky than usual when i'm not feeling well.
every time i start to feel better, i just end up feeling much worse. it's like two steps forward seven steps backwards. or something like that.
i had a real, "i live here now" moment this morning. i walked into the coffee garden and they all said, "nakedjen, are you okay?" and i said, "well, no not really..." and they all said, "we've been following you on twitter. you're really sick!"
it made me laugh. in a good way. i mean, come on?! the coffee garden peeps are following me on twitter? that, my friends, is rather comical. and makes me feel loved all at the same time. in january, i will have lived here for two years. two years. which isn't really that long in the grand scheme of things considering i lived in santa cruz for 20 years and salt lake is a much larger city.
and yet?
i've got a community here. i really do. i have genuine friends here. in mormonville. who truly do love me. and will bring me hot and sour soup in the middle of the night. and cook me rad indian food just because. and invite me to strange burning man activities in the middle of the desert. and take me to the top of a mountain to see falling stars.
it's a beautiful thing, this life here. i can't really complain. so if i do? slap me. and remind me that i am loved.
